Monthly Archives: July 2013

Learning To Draw: #41

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26/7-13
Mooar faces! I shuffle the facial features around and play some. Experimenting to learn how different details make us all have an individual look. It’s fun and interesting!

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25/7-13
Plenty of faces from imagination and some studies to the left. I try to figure out how to draw faces from the side, not only from the front. Now when I finally figured out how to construct faces from the front I tend to stick to that view, and also the people I draw look quite the same… The cure for this must be some studies of real life humans?

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22/7-13
This is something I made on the ferry from Åland to Finland. I was inspired by my internet friend B0sskar’s works. It looks like we will do a creative collaboration. More on that later! I’m very excited about it!

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21/7-13
Painting stuff, using a black colored pencil : )

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20/7-13
Drawing in front of the TV, hanging out with ma sisters. Starting to feel like drawing is fun again!

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19/7-13
Drawing a lot of faces and fish. I love them both, so why not combine them? When drawing this I tried to be a bit more relaxed, only draw what I felt like, what I wanted to. No studies, no pressure.

Is it already post #41? Time flies when you are having fun, as the Swedes say. It’s now almost a year since I started my drawing project, and next month I’m planning to write a retro-perspective about my project. To look back at what I’ve learned and what I’ve created. It’s been both fun and hard works so far. And some really rough times.

The last two weeks have been kinda difficult. I had a monster flu, and also I was home alone for like five days. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not needy in any way, and I like being left alone a lot of the time, but last week EVERYONE I know went away. Not just my whole family (every single one of them left the country or the house), and all my friends traveled away or were busy at work. So I was kinda bored and after a while not even the Interwez can give you company. Facebook is only a temporary social distraction, but not the real deal heh.

Anyways, I think I found the joy in creating again, and that removes a huge stone of my chest. I found no joy whatsoever in drawing a while ago, and everything I did just felt forced or crappy. I guess that’s what happens if you only aim to “improve” and learn, not to express yourself and have fun along the way. It can’t only be a means to and end. I came to a point when I only felt anxiety and pressure when I put my pen to the paper. Not good.

So I think I managed to get past that challenge. You encounter various “bosses” while you are on a quest for things in life. One of them have been to learn how to paint skin in a good looking way, and this creative block is for sure another big “boss”. I’ve managed to get past the creative block by not drawing, by cutting myself some slack. Then slowly get back to it and only draw and doodle what I wanted to. No studies or marathon paintings, only fun stuff. Then only drawing when I felt like it, and bit buy bit I recovered. Sometimes you can’t solve a problem if you repeatedly bang your head against the wall. Sometimes you need to take a brake and do other stuff. Like hang out with friends or enjoy nature < 3 Now I only need to figure out how to paint human skin and I’ve beaten two big bosses on my quest…

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Learning To Draw: #40

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15/7-13
Some random doodles.

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14/7-13
Partially made from reffs. Trying to put more feel into it.

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14/7-13
Some late night painting. thinking about WHY do I paint.

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12/7-13
Some random ancient ruin and crocked trees. I love trees…You can paint them i 1 million different ways < 3

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13/7-13
Found a cool looking shoe with stuff growing out of it. Drew it and gave it to my family who frame it in 5 minutes haha!

Still no access to tablets or fancy stuff like Photoshop, so the sketchbook pages will have to do. I’ve been thinking a lot about WHY do I draw. Why do we do anything at all, we only live for a maximum of 100 years (if we are lucky). Then it’s all over. Forever. Sounds sad and depressing, but these thoughts kinda stuck in my head after the doctors scanned me for brain tumors earlier this year. And the fact that I turned 25 last month and have lived 1/4 of my life is not helping, haha. I think this is something everyone thinks about sometimes. I’ll just  keep on doing stuff like hanging out with my friends and see where this takes me. I feel like life is so short.

At night when I can’t sleep I lay away and think about the fact that most things in the universe are “dead”, they are not alive in the same way like you, me or a flying bird or a tree are “alive”. But we are all made up of the same things; atoms. So atoms in themselves are “dead”. However, after billions of years, a freak accident created life and now some of these “dead atoms” are inside mine and your brain, and suddenly they are “alive” and even understand they are atoms. You and me make the Universe aware of itself in a way. Dude….I’m not drunk, I’m just thinking out loud.

So why do anyone create anything when we are all gonna die? I guess it’s because we forget we are dying or that we don’t care. We do stuff that makes us feel like we have a purpose or makes us feel alive. For me that includes friends, music, swimming in the ocean etc. Or creating the perfect list of 90’s music on Spotify!

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Learning To Draw: #39

Hey guys, what’s up? I’m in Finland right now, staying here for a while. This means I won’t have access to my drawing tablet, nor to fancy stuff like Photoshop or fully computers. Might stay some days or weeks, still haven’t decided. Without telling you too much I’ve kinda applied for a job or two, and so far they seem to like what I told them. Or at least I hope so…The jobs are in the computer game industry, but not in the art department. Wish me luck!

Before leaving Sweden I obtained my first Moleskine sketching book and some colored pencils and crayons. I also brought two awesome art books with me, belonging to my awezum friend Karrey. So now I’m sure I got plenty to do while I’m away from the computer.

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6/7-13
Drawing some fun stuff. I found plenty of my old drawings while cleaning out my apartment this week, and I realized I don’t draw the way I used to anymore. My mindset has shifted from “this is fun but I don’t know what I’m doing”, to “Let’s learn, study and improve”. I kinda miss the feeling of chaos and fun :/

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5/7-13
Some random girls I made on the train and ferry omw to Finland. I spent like 12 hours on the road to get from Malmö to Finland. Lucky me two of my cool friends wanted to hang out with me while I was waiting for the bus. You rock!

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5/7-13
Some gestures from imagination.

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5/6-13
Moarrr….

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5/7-13
And OMG another page of gestures, who could have guessed?!

Before I call this post done I want to take a few minutes and speak my mind about the site Conceptart.org. It’s a site where a lot of super talented, hard working artists gather to show their art, to get advice  or to talk art. That’s great!

However, I must say I don’t really like either DevintArt or ConceptArt that much. DA had some really bad user design not too long ago, and they still try to push the premium version down your throat every time. CA has A LOT downtime, laggy image upload, shaky updates that removes older art etc. I  understand there are a lot of people working for free to ensure the site is up, but I really don’t trust them with my art : / Some days I can’t upload, other days the “retrieve password” function is broken, and during the latest update a lot of my old posts became corrupt. That’s why I don’t rely on them for sharing my stuff with others. I would love to do it however, because then I could hang out with fellow artist and get feedback on my images. I have been sharing my art mainly on this blog and on FB to ensure I control the technical side and can tack the numbers if I want to.

Today I get almost 0 % feedback or critique on my drawings, and that’s bad if I want to develop. What’s even worse is that I start to feel very alone. Like I live in a bubble, and create stuff in a vacuum. Over the 10 months I have been doing this “Learning To Draw”-project, where I constantly try to improve my skills, I have gotten very little feedback, maybe 4-5 times someone has bashed my stuff in a constructive way. I would love to draw together with other people, to have someone to talk to about all this stuff that’s tumbling in my head. Two times during the last 10 months I have found someone to really talk to about values, composition or other art geekery. And that’s not enough. Maybe I’m just not seeking contact in the right way. I don’t know. Maybe people don’t take my attempts seriously and don’t consider me worthy of their time to give critique.

So I decided to bump my old thread over at CA and see if I can get into contact with some fellow artists. I’m not too excited about it, and I don’t expect that much, since constructive critique seems to be supermegaduper rare to get over there as well? But hey,  would love to get proven wrong!

What struck me while I browsed the jungle of old threads and sketchbooks over at CA is that a lot of my old friends from my time at university had sketchbooks. But none of them are updating anymore (or they do, but it’s like once a year). I suddenly felt even more alone, like I just arrived to an empty train station, and the train left in 2007. 2LM8.

I feel like I’m walking trough a desert on my own. Someone told me there is a city of gold out there, somewhere. I guess I just better stop whining and start walking again…

Here’s my sketchbook at ConceptArt.org LINK

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