Some pages from my sketch book. Been very busy with other more business-related stuff lately. Casen Crowd turned 6 months now, and so far so good. I’ve been out of my comfort zone more times than can even begin to remember, and I’ve learned TONS about community management, social media, negotiating, handling clients, business, paperwork, web, graphic design, taxes, branding, marketing etc etc. Starting my own company may have been the most stressful thing I’ve ever done, but I’ve also learned more in 6 months than I’ve learned in the last year or so. And no matter what happens in the future it feels like all this knowledge is gold worth! That said, yes it’s a bit scary sometimes : ) Got around to update my LinkedIn this weekend as well, to better reflect what’s going on in my career.
So I still get that feeling of loneliness when I sit down in front of the computer and draw at home. I think this is something that has grown bigger since I started working for myself. I’m very extrovert, and when I was employed the drawing I did when I got home after work was a way to get some time for myself (still got the need for “me-time” even if an extrovert), but now when I don’t have colleagues in the same way, I just feel like I would need more interaction with other humans IRL, so when I get home, turn on the computer and start to draw I just feel like I become even more lonely. I try my best to hang out with friends every weekend to make up for the lack of social during the weekdays, but I just need to find a better way to balance this stuff. Attending Malmö sketch jam is a good place to start, but it’s not nearly enough in the long run. Perhaps starting a Skype call group would be an idea?
I’ve noticed I tend to draw more cartoony stuff than realistic stuff. I feel like this is more true to how I want to draw and paint, but so far I’ve just felt that I need to learn how to draw the realistic stuff to do it the right way. Sounds crazy, right? I see all these amazing artists draw with an cartoony style and I feel like maaan that’s art that hits me right in the feels! Looking back at all the stuff I made as a child and teen, I always liked to do the cartoony things more. It felt more like my expression than when I tried to do photo realistic stuff. The cartoony style simply feels closer to my imagination. I think you should stay true to yourself, embrace and build on your strengths. So with this said I think I’ll finally start thinking of my cartoony style as OK and just go with the flow. I’m not aiming to become an concept artist or professional illustrator. I’m free to explore whatever styles I want : D Yeah!
Speaking of cartoony magic, I did my best to study Justin Oaksford‘s amazing image this weekend. This proved to be a great challenge. It left me feeling like solving a Ruki’s cube of art inside my head, trying to wrap my mind around where to even start when studying something like this. For me it involved a lot of planning for where I should put my layers, how to even start working with the lights, and what kind of brushes to use.
And last, but not least, I’m leavening you with some “failed” attempts of various things! A collage of faces all made in 10 minutes each, an unfinished study of Alexandria Neonakis‘s super cool art, and some Happy Plug’s girl (who got the exact kind of blonde hair and dark eyebrows I so desperately wish would fit my face but sadly it doesn’t xD).