A Different Mindset

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Found a pack of water colors in my drawer last week, so played around and explored a bit, making some rough quickies. Pretty soon found out I did not have the right kind of paper to make it work, but it was fun non the less! Been doing some thinking about creativity and art. Actually meditating a bit on my workout routine got me thinking. I mean, why is it that I make progress, have so much fun and just get into flow with the workout, but all of that seems to be lacking in my art at the moment? I really feel nothing when I put pen to paper, and I get easily distracted.

The funny thing is, I enjoy the workout so much, but I almost never post about it, talk about it or share it with others. When it comes to art I document it all, and mostly I think about a reason for doing art. I got two widely different mindsets for my art and my exercise, and one seems to be working much better. It’s like making an image in itself isn’t enough on it’s own (which it should be, as my friends pointed out when posting about this on Facebook). When going to the gym, each time there makes me feel…good. I feel like I had fun, like the workout on its own was worth something more than just the act of lifting heavy junk or running fast. I think I might be looking at the wrong place, when it comes to art. Earlier when posting about the Art Project I mentioned that the end goal was to level up my skills to be able to express myself trough art. I think that might have been the goal in the beginning, but the goal has changed somewhere along the way.

I don’t want to jump to any conclusions, but I think there is no “end goal” for my art. I think it has to be viewed on it’s own, that the process is the most important thing, just like with the gym sessions. I don’t have an end goal with working out, except that it will help me stay healthy in the long run, and it makes me feel good for the moment. Thinking about art as something that I need to grind is perhaps wrong. Of course I need to practice if I want to get better at it, but I think I need to look at it from the other way. I got a passion for working out, and I view each session on its own, and therefor I get better at it. I lift heavier and run longer as a result. The passion becomes the driving force, not the need to level up or the grind. When I think about it that’s the very reason I started drawing as a kiddo. I had a passion for making images, never thinking about if they were good or not, and the passion made me do more images, and as a result the images got better and better. I do knowledge that the push I’ve done the last 2,5 years has made a huge difference for the quality of my images, but I do think it’s time to step out of the cave and start focusing on the joy in the process.

Now I just need to figure out how. It would be interesting to hear your toughs on this, so feel free to write me a comment.

4 thoughts on “A Different Mindset

  1. Andreas

    Looks like you pretty much spelled out the answer to the problem yourself, but in regards to the sentence “start focusing on the joy in the process”, this sounds risky as I doubt you’re having the same focus while working out. I would imagine that’s just something that happens by itself.
    Not everything needs active input in order to succeed. Sleep is a good example of this, where it’s all about letting go.

    1. Saxen Post author

      Hey A! Thanks for the input! You are totally right, what you said about sleep is very fascinating :)

  2. Debbie

    Hie. With regards to the “having fun during the process post”, I was in the same place for a few years. 5 years ago drawing a portrait (or anything else for that matter) was terrifying. every stroke I made was a confirmation of failure or success. So I was stuck in that phase where I had to think twice before picking up a pencil.
    Over the years I didn’t draw much and focused more on exploring why I have always loved drawing. It just so happened that for me ,I enjoyed watching my hand and fingers create a story of lines,shapes, color and forms. I am still working on cultivating that pure passion for art as I draw each day.
    My therapy is “draw scribbles or circles or anatomy etc 100 times and over until my fear started to turn into curiosity. I am able to draw without wondering what it will look like in the end but how I feel doing it is a priority.
    I hope to eventually set a direction that will bloom into a career.
    I want you to know that every artist is different and we all start from humble beginnings but that little spark you get when you create something(weather final or process) is worth protecting and what makes you great at what you do :).

    “Again I will say that your site helped me relax as an artist and am grateful that the spark didn’t go out”

    1. Saxen Post author

      Hi Debbie! Thank you for sharing your story, it was very interesting to read. I hope you will get to a place where creating art feels like joy or something you do without judging your skill or ability too hard. I think I’m getting there, and the fact that I don’t need to make art for a living is going to take a lot of (unnecessary) pressure of me about this whole thing :) Thanks for reading by blog, happy if you can learn anything from it!


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