Still no access to tablets or fancy stuff like Photoshop, so the sketchbook pages will have to do. I’ve been thinking a lot about WHY do I draw. Why do we do anything at all, we only live for a maximum of 100 years (if we are lucky). Then it’s all over. Forever. Sounds sad and depressing, but these thoughts kinda stuck in my head after the doctors scanned me for brain tumors earlier this year. And the fact that I turned 25 last month and have lived 1/4 of my life is not helping, haha. I think this is something everyone thinks about sometimes. I’ll just keep on doing stuff like hanging out with my friends and see where this takes me. I feel like life is so short.
At night when I can’t sleep I lay away and think about the fact that most things in the universe are “dead”, they are not alive in the same way like you, me or a flying bird or a tree are “alive”. But we are all made up of the same things; atoms. So atoms in themselves are “dead”. However, after billions of years, a freak accident created life and now some of these “dead atoms” are inside mine and your brain, and suddenly they are “alive” and even understand they are atoms. You and me make the Universe aware of itself in a way. Dude….I’m not drunk, I’m just thinking out loud.
So why do anyone create anything when we are all gonna die? I guess it’s because we forget we are dying or that we don’t care. We do stuff that makes us feel like we have a purpose or makes us feel alive. For me that includes friends, music, swimming in the ocean etc. Or creating the perfect list of 90’s music on Spotify!