Took me a bit longer than usual to collect images for this post. The reason is I haven’t really been able to draw lately, headaches and eye-problems. I’m told it could be some kind of migraine activated by the computer screen? Next week I’m getting my brain X-rayed to make sure there’s nothing more serious behind my condition.
To be honest this makes me terrified. I’ve been struggling with fear, thinking a lot about death lately. I just want this to be over, to know for sure I don’t have anything unwanted inside my skull. Luckily my family and my dear friends have been a tremendous support during this time. I’ve been sleeping at friend’s places for almost two weeks, trying to pat a lot of cats and laughing at The Office. The hardest part is when I’ve shut off the computer, when it’s just me, the darkness and my own fears.
The chances this is something more serious are extremely small, but after witnessing my grand mother die in cancer and my own mother fighting cancer when I was around 12, I know bad things can happen. Anyways, the doctor made me go on sick leave this week, and hopefully I’m back at the office after the Easter, ready to work with my main game project! Until I know I’m not dying I’ve kinda put everything else in my life on hold. Gonna spend the following days in Malmö, and then make a trip to Finland to celebrate Easter with my family. I’m sure everything will be OK.
My friend Mary Q is doing a really amazing project. She is painting a self-portrait a day, publishing them on her blog [link]. She has drawn 27 portraits so far and you can really tell she is developing her skills, it’s very inspiring and fun to see. I hope she keeps it up!
DeviantArt gallery featuring most of the stuff I made so far: [click here]