It’s that time of the year again, when I summarize what I’ve learned about painting and drawing during the last 365 days. It’s this small tradition since I have this thing for organizing my life in different chapters. You can read about my first year of making art like a crazy person here, and my second year here!
Almost exactly three years ago I sat down and made a drawing of Bane from Batman. The finished drawing lit a spark of curiosity in me, and I decided I wanted to level up my art skills. So I mentally committed to “The Art Project”. I would try my best to level up my art skills during the following three years, just to see what happened if I gave my mediocre art skills some dedicated time and space to grow. I wanted to explore my art. That’s how the “Art Project” was born. I guess I just wanted to improve. And it was a quite naive goal, since the I was mostly thinking of the technical skills, not things as creativity, passion etc.
I feel like this final year I’ve started to feel detached from the whole project itself. There has just been so much other things going on in my life at the same time. I’ve been very busy running my own, small company, I’ve been having some health issues (my leg is fucked up an hurts when I sit down) and so on. When I look back at what I’ve created year #3, it’s frankly not that much. I’ve definitely created some of my best stuff so far, but all in all I’ve done very little of it. I think it also has to do with something I briefly touched upon last year, the fact that since I’m working (mostly) all by myself at my office I don’t want to spend the nights as well all by myself in front of yet another screen. It makes me feel alone. Alone and sad. Too alone to have the energy or spark to create. I need other humans more than I need to make art. I also love physical exercise more than I love sitting down and making art. When I choose between drawing, working out or hanging with my friends art will always finish last. That’s just how I am. I can’t spend days looked away in an art dungeon, hehe.
Going trough my stuff from the last three years tells me I’ve definitely improved my technical skills, but I feel like my creativity is not what it once was. I don’t dream of new worlds, I’m having a hard time going into flow when creating, and I’m looking at it all on a very technical level, analyzing and picking it apart. If you made me choose between technical skills and creativity and imagination, I would pick the creativity and imagination without even thinking twice!
So, I feel it’s time for a new chapter here. I’m done with the Art Project! It has been a great learning experience, but I want to move on to other things in life. I want to get to a place where I mange to get so much more joy out of creating stuffs, may it be by drawing or dancing or doing push-ups or whatever. I’m ready.
I’m happy I did this, and looking back I can’t imagine how much I learned. I’m also super thankful for all the lovely people who have followed me, provided feedback, bought my stuff on Society6 or just kept following my blog from afar. Big thanks, you mean a lot to me! Good bye Art Project : D
Three years fly by so fast.